God's gifts put mans' best dreams to shame.
~Elizabeth Barrett Browning~
As a young girl I dreamed of meeting the perfect man, getting married and having LOTS babies, all by the age of 25. But as I went through highschool and into university, my dreams began to alter. I still wanted all the same things, but not quite so soon. I now dreamed of starting my career, of getting my P.Eng. and maybe travelling before I settled down. But God knew better; He knew that the dreams of a little girl were His actual plans for my life. So, at the age of 21 I met my perfect man; at the age of 23 I married my best friend; and now, at the age of 25 I will be a mom :)
Yep, that's right, I'm pregnant with a wee little MacGregor! Andrew and I are so excited! God has given us a gift that we hadn't even started planning for...and that's actually the most beautiful part. We went for our first ultrasound last Monday and got to hear the little munchkin's heartbeat. He/she is now 10 cm long and is due on July 18.
Ideally we would like to move back to Ontario in the fall, after the baby is born, but we know that we need to be open to God's plan. We both want our families to be a big part of our child's life and I just can't imagine having a baby without my mom. But at the same time, we know God brought us out here for a reason and we can't just pick up and leave because we want to, or because other people want us to. Although this is excruciating for me to admit, any decision made to move or stay will have nothing to do with what I want. If we're heading home to Ontario, it will be because we know that we have accomplished everything here in BC that God set out for us to do/learn/see/hear. So please, pray for us, pray for direction, pray for clarity.
Life is God's novel. Let Him write it.
~Isaac Bashevis Singer~
Over the last couple years I have been truly learning what this means. I am a planner and as such I like to think that I can plan my whole life...from the career I will have, to the cities I will live in, and to the age that I will have babies. And in every instance, God taps me on the shoulder and says, "Melissa, trust in me. I know your heart. I know what you can handle. I have a plan for you." And so, I've had to put my desire to be in control aside and let Him step in and show me where to go...even when that means move to BC or be prepared for a child. I'm learning to surrender all of me, knowing that God's plan is much much bigger and much better.
